are connected. unlearn and let me clarify, there are two directions on our single dimension why can you not see? unlearn, breathe deep and dive deep and see how

we are connected, not opposites just opposite directions, see how connected we are. peel back my shell my layers to find me, keep peeling to find nothing in the center, i am in the barriers not dividing but connecting, between dust and breath, streetlight and dark, body and body and mind and mind we are

connected, we are not distinct and not discrete and you wonder where and what i am even as you hold my layers? there is

nothing in me, nothing but layers in me, in us, we are connected, we are nothing else, we are nothing and we are

softly, we're so close only you can hurt me. i touch the floor that touches you, we breathe the same air, we are parallel lines we are full of the same information, it makes perfect sense please try to keep up with me. i can ignore nothing, i can't forget no matter how i try. how did i

get here is this another hallucination? i never know, they're so real, more than real, i view it all through a lens i wish i could share, wish you could understand, i feel so out of place here i feel like i'm on fire, i don't know if we're real. i wish you'd trust me i'm the same as i ever was, i'll wake up

soon. speak softly, i prefer the waking dreams, the mind

is a terrible thing

and push against, pull you in, i turn the wheel

and am turned in turn, turn, turn, i turn the wheel that turns

and turns, everything in turn, i am the heat engine, i turn the wheel that turns the world

me. what has changed me? these are not problems these are blessings in disguise, impenetrable disguise. i have changed

everything, can see everywhere. these walls the distance between my mind and yours is unknowable and i see this, such clarity. i've looked everywhere looked for a way to feel this alive. i see black see the white lines of the grid spreading out to forever beyond distance itself to the ideal point but i see it, feel it feel so alive such

clarity, such distance i can see where we are but do not remember getting here, the destination not the journey, something has changed i have lost control have lost my bearing. point me in the right direction walk with me if you will, forget everything take my

hand see the newness, feel me show you nothing has changed.

edge most of the time now, i'm on the edge looking over i can see forever see through everything but you remain opaque, you're the one solid thing but divergent fuzzy around the edges and not well defined, it underscores the need

for change, we've been over this your presence complicates things, you muddy the waters, you divert me. please will you stop whispering. this this is what i'm talking about, there's a voice in the next room it sounds like yours and i my mind makes you real i wish you'd stop whispering do you understand me? do i understand you? it's a

mystery this person i am, i am speaking as clearly as i can i can't seem to wake up. no i don't need your help, i'm fine i just lost my balance further evidence that these pills are just placebos it's a common problem these days, these

data the data they all point to the same thing

bleak again, opaque, are you my shadow? am i in yours? if i am it's fine don't move, the light hurts me just

now, slow down you're going a mile a minute, i'm having trouble i'm having trouble focusing i'm having trouble i don't remember exactly how i

got here, this meadow is unfamiliar the wind is wrong here, here here you are, you are we are all aspects of the same, it's important you hear what i'm saying, the same entity do you understand? our names the line separating us is so small and so arbitrary, like us, degenerate so fragile i have so much to say and so little

time and world, turn me upside down shake me i'll forget it all. do you understand? i'm sorry if you do i'm sorry if i let you too far in. i need something for the pain. what are you putting into my cup, what have i swallowed, what am i on? i am on radio, i am on holiday, i am on fire, when my fever

breaks help me help me pick up the pieces.

like that? i'm fine, i'm just tired i never sleep, dreadfully tired but if i close my eyes the walls change, if i close my eyes i see everything, if i close my eyes you'll drive us off the road, i'm keeping us alive with my open

eyes, open yours. can't you see the values? the progressions? i'm keeping us alive. the permutations unfold and expand to exactly fill the container, replace the emptiness of the container, nullify the null, this far and no

further. the container is me so try to understand my interest in the topic, simple interest, never say obsession, never imply never imply the straightening of carpet tassels, never imply the need to contain, the need to staple, the need to parse, the need to make discrete, never imply whispering voices, i hear and feel

your voice coming from the next room i come running you leave you leave before i get there, remembrance comes back, this has all happened, will happen

again, i hear you again and see you, right here, i know this cannot be real i ask you to leave

again, i hear you again and see you, right here, i know this cannot be real i ask you to leave

again, i hear you again and see you, right here, i know this

is not a good dream, i can never sleep. i know this is not

a dream.

getting the poking tingling feeling again in the point at the back of my head that means either i'm seeing time and space unhindered, e-i-e-i-o, or i've forgotten to take my

lithium again. i don't know how you make the phone ring so that only i can hear it but i wish you wouldn't, you're disturbing the

order of things round here, here, here's tom with the weather the fallout is spreading headed west highs in the mid ten millions and, here, i'm rambling again but i digress, i have

this dream, again and again where you you're getting into the car and i'm saying stop, stop, i don't have i told you this before? i

don't want to be scared anymore, my head is hurting again, i want to wake up and it's only after i've thought about it a while here and only after i see and hear my mom biting her nails by the ekg machine when i realize i have



n't slept for weeks. i don't think i'm sleeping
well.